the girl with golden hair

she sits there besides a window in her house closing her eyes ,annoyed and disatisfied by this world ,she wants to ignore everything around her and forget  all her sufferings in her life .she is in a pensive mood thus, she wants to take rest from this world as she has suffered greatly that now her patience and faith in god has collapsed .she moves her fingers between her beautiful hair only to make herself feel, to be accompanied .her golden hair shines because of the blaring sun rays in the sky  . she sits there by the window only to seek god one day and ask the reason for her sufferings.she had always suffered from a fate of abandonment .thus she was abandoned by her parents ,abandoned by her friends and then abandoned by her lover who promised to never leave her and at last felt abandoned by her god . Her tears roll over  her cheeks and then towards her lips which have been waiting for a smile.her tears shine like jewels speaking of a history of what she had.  She is not weak or coward but instead strong, strong  with her emotions and brave to live everyday alone.these tears gives her celerity to be calm and go on and on in her  life  .she may not find god one day but she may find herself to be sucessfull in every relationship .she has not been able to play a role in a normal life but  she needs to let go and move on with what she got and  start a new fresh life . Today she just needs to understand that this is just a lesson of her life and she needs to face it gracefully for a bright future.she may be exhausted but she has not died, inside her still lies a girl who's just waiting there for a perfect life. A period that's just waiting for her, she just needs to wake up and get out and shine like her golden hair because its my belief that one day she will find a family of her own.